I'm afraid. @__@ Feeling that thausand things will chango my life drastically in few months. My life will change again, like was in tha past, at 2004 year...
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...I was a boy who lived always at the same place in the same city, studied always at the same school and lived together with the same friends, making the same things and never wanting changes. But, someday, everything that we don't wanna change... Modifies. To a better mode or to a worst mode. Or also the two one. ^^' Well... In 2004, my lifa has changed to the SECOND mode and I satid sad... very very sad. My famili was break apart, each one livin' in a different place, without the proximity that there was in the past. And, the worst part of this is that: Evrything happened in a very brief fraction of time. When I perceived what was happenin', I was inside a big wave, dragging me to a different life. And I doesn't want that,
Well, I moved from Salvador City to Jacobina's City and here I was forced down to make a "new life". Without my parents and without a handrail to support me, i was walking; sometimes by myself, sometimes with the assistance of some kinsfolk, but was not the same thing. And now it is not equal than before, by the way. And never will be again.
You know, If read my first post, that I'm a confused boy ^^, but I earned some matureness in my life ((and this is a good point, verifying that behind something that seems bad at all, there is something good waiting to be discovered)), and now I can analyse that situation from a different angle. I think these changes made me benefits that I couldn't reach if staid in my old city, in my old life, in my old 'me'.
But, as though wasn't enough already, changes will hapen again. And I'm afraid. I feel the fear running among my veins and makin' my body shakes of nervousness sometimes, when I think too much about this aspect.
Now I'm studying to perform an exam very important for me and my profissional formation: Vestibular. I think I didn't studied enough to be approved in this exam and can to course an University. But I'll try with what I have of knowledge and... And... ^^ And I really don't know. My parents are counting on me and entrusting on me and I really do not want to disappoint them. KAMISAMA HEEEEEEEEELP!
*controls itself*
Hm, I selected to do a course to be Bacharelor in Biology, and I need to know too much about Biology ((love it *-*)), Chemistry ((ahm... Don't love it ^^)) and Physics ((really hate this sbject matter)). Do you think I'll be approved? T________T I took from the internet some tests from previous exams ((2004 year... Coincidently ^^)) and I believe that my level is below than I need to have an approval. I did my inscription yesterday and today I'll pay the bank-note.
Ahm...
Behind all these complications, at least I have something that motivate me and make me a litte more happy: Do As Infinity CDs. ^^ *really addicted* I bought TWO more CDs and, at this time, was the CD+DVD version of the Singles Honjitsu WA Seiten NARI and Hiiragi. They are beauuuuuutifullllllll, specially the DVDs. Unfortunately they do not play in 'normal DVD Players' and I have to watch in a computer. But is not bad, at all... At least I can watch them.
The DAI's Original collection is growing! \o/ And I'm intending to buy more and more and more and... *be crazy XDD* This is very good.
And... A little advice... hohoho... If who I want that read this advice read it... I'm intending to buy YUI's Second ALBUM! CAN'T BU MY LOVE, maybe in the end of this year I'll have it in my hands. And listen always in my diskman ((I don't remember if I told that I has broken it, but now my diskman is ok again <3~ // Just with a little problem at the display, but my father can fix it er than the light o/~
Now is time to say goodbye.
Ja ne, minna-san. And I'll try to post here more frequently. I promise.
