[ stand up! jweick ]

I'm kind of having tough days lately. But everything is basically my fault. Can't describe exactly what's going on with me, but I must say that, as usual, I'm still thinking too much about things that should be solved in a simple and clean way. I believe I was supposed to be grateful for all the things that I've been experiencing this year. And not only this year. Actually, since I put my feet at this town, good things started to happen to me, even though some of them have costed me a couple of stressful and annoying moments. But it's no big deal.

I am not suffering nor even being punished or put in bad situations, the thing is that I'm not the kind of person who likes to solve their problems and I'm quite afraid of dealing with new things. I'm definitely not a risk-taker, that's for sure. But sometimes, people make me do things that if they depended only on me, I would probably skip and miss the opportunity of living something new. I'm kind of tired of this. Most of the great changes in my life weren't my own and exclusive decisions, there's always someone else behind me, supporting me, pushing me, and saying "Why don't you do this or that way?" and I feel like a little kid. Damn it!

Anyway, I've been into Do As Infinity once again, after a while not listening to it that frequently. I've downloaded new live tracks and right now they're being uploaded to my cellphone. Speaking of cellphones, I'll be probably changing, in a couple of weeks, for a new one. Nowadays I have an LG Optimus L5 Dual and I'm going to get this new one LG Optimus L9. And I am VERY VERY VEEEERY a little excited about this XD

Better get back to work (yes, it's 7:30 pm and I still have a lot of work to do, because tomorrow I won't be able to keep working until late at night). Saa, mata ashita!